// Once in a blue moon there’s a blue star//

Every once in awhile I sit down and am fully capable of writing something I’m truly proud of. I’m harder on myself I suppose than anyone else I pretend I don’t do much but honestly I kinda work my ass off with everything school work writing. I’ve also learned that I have an obsessive personality trait because when I like something it’s more like intense love and it consumes my life e.g Harry potter, lord of the rings, etc or if I don’t care about it I normally passionately hate it. Go figure right? It’s been so long since I’ve been in a relationship that I think I’ve forgotten how to do it although everyone around me seems to be in serious ones I really don’t envy them. Cause there all controlled and I can’t be controlled I’m a free spirit… Sometimes. Giving up friendships and important things for the person who “loves” you I believe in love above most things but trust me when I do get in a relationship it’s gonna be with someone who wouldn’t expect me to give up shit for them cause id never ask anyone to give up anything for me. Time keeps flying there weren’t December and there went January and here we have begun the month of love. Speaking of which I’ve always wanted to ride in a “tunnel of love” I think there a marketing scheme because I’ve never seen one in real life only in movies and the occasionally book. Oh my speaking of books haha I have a job interview Tuesday morning to work in a library (I don’t know why but I spoke that last sentence in my brain in a British accent) so long lonesome :)